Miss, love, hate

Thursday was when we met
Saturday is where it ends.

You've gone four days
Ninety six hours away

Come back, bubba
Where have you gone?

The bed  feels cold
I toss and roll and roll

Looking eyeing, from time to time
Please come back and say Hi

My mind thinks of you
My heart does it too

So where have you
Bubba, hurry up, I need you

Silly hearts

Every word you say pulls me closer to you
Every word you speak lifts my face
Like a million helium balloons
Perfection, in my definition of the word
Enough to make me think you are someone
I need in my life

Getting a word seemed slim
When I saw how gorgeous you were
Girls go around promoting lies
But I finally found a woman
With a body and a soul

I fall more in love
With every paragraph you write
With every song that you sing
I want to give you my all
In every moment, my heart and my soul
The rest of the world can't have me but you
Silly hearts calm down
Calm down every pound

This isn't where we end, this is where we begin
Share your pains and sorrows
I will save you out of the love from my heart
I won't let a day go without you, you are my catch
Been asleep and woke up to you
Won't travel any distance for anyone but you

Just when I thought love didn't exist
You have opened my eyes
You can cuss me out and hate me
Turn around and you'll still see me
I'm real, so don't doubt me

leave old, go new

you come running when you are in need
leave when you find someone new . . .

out with the old, in with the new










how easy is it for you to make me feel alone in a crowded space











you tell me this and tell me that
are you not aware, i want your mouth shut












blatantly announce to the world what you've done the day before
the day before yesterday the day that was before before yesterday
didn't think it makes sense.











i roll my eyes away as you speak
i don't know whether to be nice or be mean









you leave me with no choice

















because you will easily forget me....

To the Best Friend I left behind

I may not be the Best in the Friend
But I'm by your side, not a Fiend
You're close to kissing the cherry on the mountain top
Here, I, just about to begin, so I take a step but stopped
Before time steals us away
I'll let my mind linger
To the place my heart belongs
Where you showed me greater things and beyond
You opened a doorway
Even if I shiver
You soothe me with songs
And swam with me in the pond
He knew what was in store
So he kept me out of bore
You taught me the function of a stringed instrument
Not just that but in your home, you let me vent
Together we meld our voices
Together we sing praises
We are so different yet so similar
Brought together by fate, but fate brought us apart
But Fate tells me one thing
"Keep her dear, and keep rejoicing"
Late night talks and sharing secrets
Voice therapy and jamming
Giggling about little things
Cooking, singing, biking
We did everything together
You stick to me more than a sister
Inseparable we were
Things end, however

Fate led me into an alienated land
Where all I could recognize was sand
So home sick and so heart sick
That my friend was a stick
I reminisce precious moments
All those lovely events
I cry my heart out
Just want to be on a mountain and shout
But time flies and sways
The emptiness decays
Communication wasn't as its best ideals
Willingness just falls
But then I say Hi, and you say Hello
You told me how you missed me so
"You are still my Best Friend"
As you are still my Best Friend
Best Friends we will be
Always and Forever



Even if we are parted apart, a thousand miles away, in my heart you will remain. You will remain an inspiration and one of my heroes in life. My spiritual life began when I met you because you made me feel secure, that I belong. True Friendship like ours exist We may not be updating each other with all the stories but when I see you once more, I will fill you in with EVERYTHING that you have missed and so are you. We will have those endless nights of sleepover until Salabat becomes our Best Friend Forever to keep us singing and losing our voices. :) I'm clouded by sadness at times because I long to be with you and everyone else, knowing that it isn't my utter fault I can't go there, to my mother country. My own mother country. My home. You all are my home. And who doesn't want to be home every once in a while? However, God has put on big challenges that are about to happen. Moving out of the island, living in a big country, where I know no one. No family but just me. It's exciting and scary but God knows where I am needed.

Jana, I miss you more than you can ever ponder. Words are truly not functional anymore if I were to explain how much I miss you, all of you. You're wonderful in so many ways you don't know. Even if we didn't talk, you showed me something beautiful. The beauty of Friendship. You taught me that despite me being here, and you being there. I love you and I hope to see you sooner than later. That is all!

What does it.

What does it feel like to have your life shared with someone? You dedicate your time. Part of your thoughts. Think about the other person 24/7. How does it feel? To commit? To a total stranger. Hmm...

Driving into dreams

I actually had a writer persona inside of me. I actually used to write stories when I was younger. Best friends who fall in love.. childhood sweeathearts.. this funky fantasy story about another world called Colitiria... I guess I got discouraged from thinking I'm not that great. Someone once told me that "that thinking process - being pessimistic - will hold you from being successful". Opportunities fly by in front of me and I don't grab them. I just let them slip by. College. It approaches. I don't want to do the samr things here. Well back to me being an author. .. deep inside my heart I want to write... I have ideas. Probably not as much as other people but I really want to engage a talent into writing. I want to reflect art in my writing. My heart really craves it. It calls for those words to be translated into paper. My hands ache to hold a pen and scribble amazing ideas that can come out of me. Well there's some inside thoughts with me.

I like you. and technically it isn't my fault for having such an emotion exist. however, there are no barriers this time except that ... you see me just as a friend.  How tragic.  Plus. Things just never go in a way I imagined. therefore I diverge myself into filling in that "What If" to avoid the emptiness my heart is exposed to. Will I everend the what ifs I have pondered upon?

What movie Genre am I?

Day 31

"a bit about your social life outside of blogger"

I'm a senior in high school. I love going to church. I always attend Wednesday night small groups and we're learning about the book of John. I'm the musician every Friday night vespers. On Saturdays I play as well and sing for the Worship Service. I really enjoy it a lot! I like to sing and play the guitar. I'm a songwriter as well. I like to wake up in the morning and watch the sun rise and set. I feel more connected with God. I love God with all my heart because He is the Prince of Peace. Without Him we are nothing but ashes and dust. We are made because He loves us so. We are saved that cost Him to send His beloved Son. I am talkative. I could be annoying sometimes because when I'm hyper, I can't stop being hyper! Some people might think I'm intimidating but I'm not. I'm very nice. People run to me as well for advises in life but those people are the ones closest to me. I don't want to spill everything about me so that's a bit of my social life outside blogger. :)

Day 30

"5 favorite girl's names, 5 favorite boy's names"


Girls:
1. Hadazzah
2. Alexandria
3. Cassandra
4. Annaliese
5. Melody

Boys:
1. Isaiah
2. Jonathan
3. David
4. Moses
5. John